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Everything is set. But still, people are wandering here and there amidst the crowd. Calling, searching, smiling, talking, and with children finding their ways in between the legs to win the i-caught-you game, its more or less a pandemonium. Its a marriage house.

There is excitement and prevailing tension,
The voices and huzzle-buzzle, not to mention,
All as part of the so-called preparations,
To mark the beginning of a clear vision.

Thoughts, dreams and fears are high in the air,
Overwhelming the rattles and the sounds bare,
Colored with shades of red and gold, except hair,
They stand apart and aloft, amidst the glare

The uncertainties of career and priorites loomed,
Encircled by relatives, she looked within so gloom,
Friends were here and there, but yet seemed so quiescent,
And too much of making fun, had left him reticent.

There they were, far at the corner, tired but relieved,
Shedding few tears of joy and happiness,
At seeing the blessings being showered,
Sighing at the thoughts of upcoming bliss…

Two pairs of eyes saw them with ease,
To give a helping hand, and to wipe their tears,
To receive their burden of responsibilities,
To lighten their heart, they always were on their heels…

Its my marriage with RK on this May 25th at Ananthashayana Auditorum, Trivandrum, Kerala. All are invited.

Experiencing writer’s block. When people have nothing to write about, some gain knowledge, and some others enjoys doing time pass. I am doing the latter now, by taking along a tag!
Read about this here and here.

A -Available? Yup. But always as a friend.
B-Best friend: One or Two.. All are busy these days..
C-Cake or Pie? Cake. Had an apple pie once. I don’t want to lose its taste.
D-Drink of choice: Coffee. Usual ones are tea, water n all. I dont mind squash juice too, and flavours should be the usual ones, like pineapple, mango etc.
E-Essential thing used everyday: Ehem… Pass
F-Favourite colour: Blue. Sometimes I do like green or pink or black, depending on the mood.
G-Gummi bears or worms: What are those????
H-Hometown: Trivandrum, Kerala
I-Indulgence: blogging, reading blog posts, or chatting with friends
J-January or February: Both. Memories cannot be confined for one month!
K-Kids and names: Not yet!!
L-Life is incomplete without: friends, love and trust!!
M-Marriage date: May 25, 2008( It will be!)
N-Number of siblings: 1, Elder sister, married.
O-Oranges or apples: Again both, but mostly i prefer sweet oranges!
P-Phobias: So many. Heights, Darkness, Deep water etc etc
Q-Quote: “Do onto others as you want them to do onto you” and “Everything will be OK at the end. If its not, its not the end”
R-Reason to smile: Amma. I am sure, she would be happy if I am smiling.
S-Season: Spring
T-Tag three people: Ashwin, Deep, and whoever wants to take the tag!
U-Unknown fact about me: Find for yourself!!
V-Vegetable you do not like: So many again!! Bitter guard and brinjal to name two.
W-Worst habit: Gets fooled or dependant easily.
X-x-rays you have had: Dental! Don’t remember any other as of now.
Y-Your favorite food: Pizza, sandwiches, red-colored rice
Z-Zodiac: Libra

Yesterday, I lost the stone-studded silver lucky ring while shooing away some flies. Some says its unlucky to lose gold and silver. What unluck more is going to come, I wonder…

I guess I have written lot on moving on life, but I feel this is something which haunts you now n then and pulls you into a black hole. There’s a saying, “Man proposes and God disposes”. This holds so true so many times in our lives. We strive for fulfilling your dreams but ends up failing as always. People say everything happens for good and there is something in store for you. But its like you get a nokia 6270 when you dreamed of N73! You are almost there and then all your hopes go down. I really wonder why did God create these hopes n dreams and determination in us, if He is gonna shower onto us, only that which he has destined for us…

Offtopic, I feel like listening to soft songs like Kitni baatein (Lakshya) and Almost here(Brian McFadden & Delta Goodrem)… hmmm…

Yesterday it was “Happy Mother’s Day”. This year I am missing my mom lot, she is just a call away, but still.. She calls me up daily, but still… She called me yesterday too, but… I still couldn’t say that! Lot many people keep saying that they hug and kiss their mom’s. And at the same time, they hide many facts from their mothers so that their moms don’t get hurt… I too do the same, but I try not to lie.. I just cant… She is always there for you, as a support, morally, when you are down at times and physically, when you are ill… Sometimes we feel that the generation gap has grown up too much that, we say excuses and lies to go out and do things which we feel right.. But I guess we often forget the fact, that no one can understand us better than our mom… I got a sms forward from my friend yesterday which absolutely said everything about her:
She loves you,
She cries for you,
She prays for you,
She gets concerned & angry at you,
She is none other than your mother.
Make your mother smile today…
Happy Mother’s Day!!

I love you amma.. And I miss you too….

Today i guess was a very bad day… After few rounds of shopping and happy moments with mom, I lost both my credit and debit cards… Until I came home and called the customer care people and blocked the cards, it was very stressful moments. A ray of hope like suddenly fading out and showing me the symptoms of some unknown truth as if a warning is being given… Why am i feeling that everything is slipping out of my hands….

The world is really progressing I guess. Atleast thats what elder people say. At home, its frequent that we hide many things from our parents because of the fear that they won’t understand this and that. Being just one year into this corporate world and out of college, the family starts looking out for grooms and advertising in matrimonial sites for suitable companions for their young ones. If we remind them that we don’t want to settle in now, they ask why. Why? Hmmm… I dono how to explain. On this, then they ask, “ok, is there someone?!!!!” .. “What??!!”  Maybe the freedom we enjoy, is an addiction and they don’t want us to fall for that. Ok fine. But how do we determine the right time? Is it the age? I guess its just one of the factors. There are many which goes unnoticed. I guess we need time to set the foundation for many things like our career,(you may ask, one year is not enough kya? well.. its high time I agree, but for me unfortunately it is not enough!).. The preparation for taking up the responsibilities, the time to build up the managerial capability for planning between work and family and relatives. They say, you’ll need a companion to live life n all and I agree with it too, but we just fear the additional responsibilities that come with the bonus. All these things matters more to women, because there are many young girls who are forced to accept and adjust their career growth after marriage..
So many decisions to make, very little time and a very short life!!!! Hmmmm!….

Many a people, including my mom, have asked me what is it that I am looking forward to? And I don’t have any answer. I am sure no girl of my age would have a true answer. I feel all are searching for some one. Even the guys are doing the same. They check out the hot chicks to show off or to enjoy hanging out as friends, but at heart I am sure they want someone else as their dream girl. Sometimes we feel we found out the right one, and we feel we are fully in love and that this is the final one etc, but later when reality dawns onto us, we feel he/she was just a strong contestant in the contest. And ths contestants and their probability to win our heart and lose in another second is just a matter of time and destiny, the game which is played by the Unknown.
This reminds me of the dialogues in the film ‘Anand’ in which Rajesh Khanna says something like: ‘The world is a stage in which we are the actors and actresses playing a drama called life under the production and direction of the Unknown!’