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Its been one and a half years now, being in the great metro city, Chennai, and when I think back, what change I have gone through, I get only one answer, “ I have grown up a bit.”. But really have I? No, I feel I need to grow up lot more. But still, I guess I have changed.

Now I don’t mind traveling at night 8 on the main roads. I don’t fear as much as I did, when I go in autos. I don’t mind calling up customer care or any number to solve for any issues. I don’t even mind talking to them rudely. I don’t fear now as much as I did, to use debit cards at ATM while withdrawing cash. I even wonder how I have the courage now to use the credit cards also, and that too online! I do travel in trains alone, and that too an overnight journey. I don’t hesitate to think of travel by flight and going by taxi from airport. I don’t mind buying fruits, vegetables and groceries from supermarket. I don’t mind doing shopping alone and spending one or two hours at any gift shop. I don’t mind buying expensive sarees and shirts for my parents or sisters or relatives, and that too with my own money. I don’t mind didn’t mind for spending whooping money for my mobile. I don’t mind meeting new people, and that too online unknown faces, and that too alone. I don’t mind going out with friends either alone or as a gang in the evenings! I don’t mind having pizzas or burgers or fried rice or biriyani at team dinners, I don’t even mind having tomato soup, considering the fact I hate tomato like anything!! Can you believe it!! I don’t mind the silence from other people. I don’t get that much angry or disappointed nowadays. Ya I agree I still do a bit, but don’t have hatred towards others, or shout at people or bark at them. I feel I think more, though I do with heart than with mind. I can now ignore the irritating behaviour of the people. I have reduced keeping expectations from others, coz I have realized those are the ones which causes you pain. I feel I can understand when people answer me in some specific way. I can feel the age difference and also a bit of the saying, old people explain like, “we are more experienced, child, I can understand”. I have now learned to say sorry and forgive others. I have now opened up to many, rather than the introvert nature I had. I have learned now to pray not for me, but for others…

But still, I feel I have to grow more… In what aspects, I have yet to find out…

Strange are those invisible nuclear changes which give away to the minute differences and at the end to the massive explosion!!